Post by Deleted on Nov 24, 2018 17:12:48 GMT
I’ve appreciated this board very much. I think that I would have scoffed a little at a notion of “closure” or a need to process feelings from past trauma that is what it’s felt like for me since this story broke.
When I was 8,9,10 years old this nasty ma-haunch messed with my life. He made me feel ashamed on a few occasions. I think he kicked my bed and scared me out of my wits standing over me with a butcher knife. I felt ashamed that I had frozen, unable to even scream. He scared me so bad that I think that I actually fainted. I feel ashamed writing this now — of all his victims who was I to just faint until he went away?
He made me afraid of my bedroom window. He trashed my house around Christmas time. He stole the coins that my grandmothers had given me and he smashed my terrarium with my Venus flytrap — it all went in the trash.
My dad chased him, gun drawn, out my bedroom window. Because Visalia PD were rebuffed my dad thought he was chasing “kids”. Knowing what we do about this guy’s tactic of taking up a position and killing whoever pursued him that night well could have turned really bad right in front of me.
He was chased away from my next door neighbors window. Living in the house along with a father were three women — a mother and two daughters in high school.
I had a copy of the ‘Field Guide of Western Reptiles and Amphibians’ and I enjoyed exploring along the American River looking for the snakes and lizards I could find there. Lovely creatures, with individual personalities and they even interact with you in their own ways. Unfortunately, out there I also found the EAR. He’s a child molesting scumbag and he made me feel ashamed.
When he was busted shoplifting I think he had my neighborhood in Rancho Cordova staked our for an upcoming campaign. I think he was creeping on my mom.
Yesterday, when I thought about what very well could have happened to my dad when he chased this punk from our home I think I entered a new phase of my processing this story— I got angry. Hopefully that’s the penultimate step towards this guy being out of my mind for good.
I appreciate all of you.
steelbike is 10-7
I've read your molestation story before. What makes you so sure it was him that molested the boy?