Post by aryuserius on Sept 21, 2015 3:02:09 GMT
Newbie here. Read quite a bit about this lately. Gained interest as I realized a good deal of my family lived in those Sacramento neighborhoods on and off from the 60s through today.
I did a quick search and didn't find much on digging into the BDSM society/world.
Here's my thoughts, scattered as they may be.
High school in Fresno, Bakersfield, Visalia??? Definitely a suburban area.
Bright, clean cut but possibly didn't graduate.
Trouble with ALL relationships. No real friends. Humiliated or turned down by girls when younger or in HS. Relationships became in his head only. Fantasy.
Gravitated towards bdsm. Shibari. Knot tying and dominance. Bondage, control, submission. Had a mentor or at least a few people he tried it on. Perhaps early on. Perhaps as far back as middle school. Didn't maintain a relationship after that.
Worked in construction or auto repair (hands on). Perhaps a family member or friend (in some manner) was a construction foreman.
He certainly had a lot of time to do his research though! Perhaps he was a day laborer or, because of his folks, he didn't need to work. In a sense, being a burglar IS work. Despite asking for money he wasn't poor or homeless.
Small time drug use. Big time overactive imagination. Cognitive distortion. As his mind gets taken over by his immoral thoughts there's no escape. His "other personalities" try to put him in check sometimes but to no avail.
I feel I have some personal insight into the tidal wave of desire, emotion, attraction, arousal..... Once you cross a certain line, a way of reasonable thinking, you arrive in a world where your actions are justified in your head. There's nothing wrong with whatever you do. Then, afterwards or in those moments where you feel human or have a moral thought, you breakdown.
This is what I think the sobbing is about. He wasn't totally cuckoo for cocoa puffs. He was struggling with bipolar disorders and a life almost entirely created by his imagination. Stuck on an unmerry-go-round of irrational thinking. He created the bondage and domination scenarios he'd seen in his head. Not the kind of direction a true bdsm fetishist enjoys in a RELATIONSHIP with a consenting adult. His, not having a partner, was the primal side of domination. The need to use his manhood. To show them who's in charge.
His shortcomings likely contributed to the revelation.
So..... Has anyone explored the bdsm and Shibari rope idea?
I did a quick search and didn't find much on digging into the BDSM society/world.
Here's my thoughts, scattered as they may be.
High school in Fresno, Bakersfield, Visalia??? Definitely a suburban area.
Bright, clean cut but possibly didn't graduate.
Trouble with ALL relationships. No real friends. Humiliated or turned down by girls when younger or in HS. Relationships became in his head only. Fantasy.
Gravitated towards bdsm. Shibari. Knot tying and dominance. Bondage, control, submission. Had a mentor or at least a few people he tried it on. Perhaps early on. Perhaps as far back as middle school. Didn't maintain a relationship after that.
Worked in construction or auto repair (hands on). Perhaps a family member or friend (in some manner) was a construction foreman.
He certainly had a lot of time to do his research though! Perhaps he was a day laborer or, because of his folks, he didn't need to work. In a sense, being a burglar IS work. Despite asking for money he wasn't poor or homeless.
Small time drug use. Big time overactive imagination. Cognitive distortion. As his mind gets taken over by his immoral thoughts there's no escape. His "other personalities" try to put him in check sometimes but to no avail.
I feel I have some personal insight into the tidal wave of desire, emotion, attraction, arousal..... Once you cross a certain line, a way of reasonable thinking, you arrive in a world where your actions are justified in your head. There's nothing wrong with whatever you do. Then, afterwards or in those moments where you feel human or have a moral thought, you breakdown.
This is what I think the sobbing is about. He wasn't totally cuckoo for cocoa puffs. He was struggling with bipolar disorders and a life almost entirely created by his imagination. Stuck on an unmerry-go-round of irrational thinking. He created the bondage and domination scenarios he'd seen in his head. Not the kind of direction a true bdsm fetishist enjoys in a RELATIONSHIP with a consenting adult. His, not having a partner, was the primal side of domination. The need to use his manhood. To show them who's in charge.
His shortcomings likely contributed to the revelation.
So..... Has anyone explored the bdsm and Shibari rope idea?